"So I don't want to take the lead
Cuz I'm prone to make mistakes.
All these folks that follow me gon' end up in the wrong place.
So, just let me shadow you. And just let me trace your lines.
Matter fact just take my pen.
Here, you create my rhymes.
Cuz if I do this by myself I'm scared that I'll succeed.
And no longer trust in You, cuz I only trust in me."-Lecrae "Background"
"I enter rooms and hope they notice me
To fill my social insecurities
I'm asking if there's any hope for me
Cuz there is room for only one"-Jimmy Needham "The reason I sing"
"Whom have I in heaven but You? On earth there is nothing I desire besides You" -Psalm 73:25
Sunday, October 31, 2010
Thursday, October 21, 2010
Random. Random Thoughts.
Last Saturday our house went to watch UFC at the Oxford house down the street. Jersey, one of the guys who lives there, invited us because we do not have cable. At one point I had to walk a friend home and came back to Jersey sitting outside by himself smoking. Out of nowhere I said "When you gonna let me show you whats in that book I got you?" (I had given him a bible a few weeks before) He said "This weekend."
One of my best friends told me yesterday that was the coolest thing I have ever said. I would have to agree. Im thoroughly convinced that I did not have very much to do with it (Thanks God, pound it?) but nonetheless it was sweet. It feels weird to do stuff like this, stuff you read about or hear about other people doing and wishing you could do cool stuff like that. You can. God has been working big time on me since I have been here and I am just starting to notice it (because Im an idiot).
Two things that I have been feeling lately are: 1. You are going to do bigger things than you think. 2. You struggle with idolatry alot.
Spurgeon says our hearts are idol making factories. Mine feels like "Nike". Psalm 73 is the chapter I believe the least in the Bible, so Im gonna memorize it and allow Gods Word and prayer transform me.
Lunch with Jersey is on Saturday. Planning on layin down some Gospel. Could use your prayers.
One of my best friends told me yesterday that was the coolest thing I have ever said. I would have to agree. Im thoroughly convinced that I did not have very much to do with it (Thanks God, pound it?) but nonetheless it was sweet. It feels weird to do stuff like this, stuff you read about or hear about other people doing and wishing you could do cool stuff like that. You can. God has been working big time on me since I have been here and I am just starting to notice it (because Im an idiot).
Two things that I have been feeling lately are: 1. You are going to do bigger things than you think. 2. You struggle with idolatry alot.
Spurgeon says our hearts are idol making factories. Mine feels like "Nike". Psalm 73 is the chapter I believe the least in the Bible, so Im gonna memorize it and allow Gods Word and prayer transform me.
Lunch with Jersey is on Saturday. Planning on layin down some Gospel. Could use your prayers.
Saturday, October 9, 2010
A Million Miles In A Thousand Years
"A Million Miles In A Thousand Years" by Donald Miller is the best book I have ever read.
It has inspired me to make a story. Or at least ponder what I want my story to look like. Challenged to make moments memorable. How will I do this? I don't know. I could spend time hanging out with the guys from the rehab house. I could share the Gospel with them. I could ask that girl to coffee. I could mentor some middle school students. I could have more deep talks with my roomates. I could take a trip, I dont know where but just take one. Or I could continue to play out the scenarios in my mind of what those would look like along with their outcomes.
I dont know why I am prone to watch these moments pass by. Part of the book was that Satan throws every obstacle in the way to prevent you from making a good story. Fear of man is definitely my greatest opponent in story making. I trick myself into believing that its wisdom and patience. I cant discern when the wisdom and patience end and where the fear and sin begin.
Ive decided that I want to write a book. But first. I must make a story. I must search why my "writer's block" is the way that it is. Then I must write daily. On page and on lives.
It has inspired me to make a story. Or at least ponder what I want my story to look like. Challenged to make moments memorable. How will I do this? I don't know. I could spend time hanging out with the guys from the rehab house. I could share the Gospel with them. I could ask that girl to coffee. I could mentor some middle school students. I could have more deep talks with my roomates. I could take a trip, I dont know where but just take one. Or I could continue to play out the scenarios in my mind of what those would look like along with their outcomes.
I dont know why I am prone to watch these moments pass by. Part of the book was that Satan throws every obstacle in the way to prevent you from making a good story. Fear of man is definitely my greatest opponent in story making. I trick myself into believing that its wisdom and patience. I cant discern when the wisdom and patience end and where the fear and sin begin.
Ive decided that I want to write a book. But first. I must make a story. I must search why my "writer's block" is the way that it is. Then I must write daily. On page and on lives.
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)